I still dun understand

haiz... i really dun understand y am i still feeling this way... sudden jealous... sudden angry.. sudden sensitive... sudden of everything...

yesterday, i cry myself to sleep... do u noe that nas?.. i dun think so... i was jus hurt wen u told me that what u did before was by force... OUCH!!! meaning of ouch is pain... i start to think back to our conversation before.. i ask you a question... DEN IF ITS NOT BASE ON LOVE, ALL THIS WHILE IS BASE ON WHAT?... haiz think about it la... i love him siak... with all my heart... maybe i should say all my life... really dissapointing... till now, u still treat me this way... not giving me answer while what u been doing prove everything.. not wanting to confess eventhough deep in my heart i noe your feeling is true... it really hurt me again jus to noe that everything is not going to work out...

want to noe y i'm being like a stalker or phycho(like wat u said), coz i dun want to lose u this time round... i really want to prove to ppl that your good... i dun want them to noe u as nas who always hurt my feelings... i dun want ppl to search for u jus coz u hurt me... even though u didnt mean it... i dun really understand...

actually thing that cock up everything is SHAZILA.. she ruin everything... my friendship.. my trust.. my connection between nas... n things make me fed up is that she never had enouf of interfering in our life... yes true enouf me n him r nothing... but the chemistry is jus there... jus how it feels like to have a girl interfering your life together... noeing that everything is going to work out... sure pissed off rite... frankly, things bt me n him almost work out till one day she come... n now she jus dun want to be out... come on la... she no longer with him.. fuck him upside down... calling him a jerk... putting fault on to him without leaving a single fault on her... and u think i'm satisfide with that.. NO!no!... thing i dun understand y she still need to bring up the past... past is past what... everything is all over... FUCKING BITCH! oops sori not that.. ITS FUCKING WHORE...