Thinking Abt You

i can't stop thinking abt you... the memories of us together seems so fresh in my mind... like as if it happened yesterday...

the laugher we had.. the way you smile... the way i smell your shirt... the scent of your perfume + your own body smell... the way you leave me behind wen we walked together... the way i listen to your crappy jokes... the way your hold my hand... the way you hug me... the way you kiss me like as if there's no tomorrow... the way you make me feel so comfortable when i'm with you... the way i look in your eyes n starts to wonder ard... the way i got to hear your voice before i sleep... the way you sing to me... the way you pestering me to judge your voice... the way you think abt everything ard... the way you show your concern towards me... the way i make love... the way you complete my day...

i really miss all that... i keep on thinking abt you... till i keep on dreaming abt you... i keep on imagine my life without you... i keep on thinking what is it going to be if i decided to let you go... i imagine myself standing beside you crying when you are at your last moment...

seriously i cant imagine my life without you... you bring love to my life n yet you are not there when i needed love again... now you are simple far from my sight... first thing that was on my mind wen i woke up was you... wen i listen to a song, it reminds me of you... wen i walked out the door, i think of you... wen i walked alone n saw couples on teh street, how i wish you could be by my side... i envy those people... i once in their shoe.. being so happy... being so proud to people that i got sumone... but now i simply can't... so i jus make u as my dream lover... whereby i keep on dreaming n think abt you, but yet i never got the chance to meet with you...

surprise me even more, wen now, my bedsheet left a scent of you... so much i can eventually being reminded abt you... the time spent together in my room... wow! too many memories...

i may sound like i'm happy without you, but deep within i'm dying... i may seen happy with the smile on my face, but behind those smile, was tears all over... i may seem to be harsh lately, but it still hurt me to do all this...

i'm taking a slow step at a time... slowly i try to regain my energy in life... slowly i try to be the best... in life, i'll never give up you... so i wont give up on you... eventhough its over my limit... i think thru n keep on trying... i never regret with wat ever happen... eventhough it hurt to accept the fact like this... but i believe... every hard work will surely be paid off soon... when?.. i'm not sure... maybe today, maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe next month, maybe next month, maybe next year... n so on n so for...

i locked my heart as the key is with you... i shut the door of happiness as my happiness is you... only you who can bring everything back in my life... my pride, my dignity, my happiness, my love, my sadness, my time, my affection, my appreciation, my respect, my everything...

for now, i'll keep on dreaming of you... keep on thinking of you... keep on being warmed by our sweet n sour memories... i'll keep on doing it... coz we both noe that i'm not over you...