Unreasonable reasons

i noe lately been having fights with him over n over again.. yah back to back, its me who started it all first... but who care... he couldnt be bother to even think about us...

i'm totally pissed off with him... fucking pissed off to be exact... for the first time, i talked back 10 sentence wen he only mention one line... sial ah... who can stand the process like this... yah i noe i'm being the unpatient one... but come on la... he change to drasticly... he used to kol me but now he dun... he used to reply me wen i msg him, but now he dun... he used to sae sweet words, but now he dun... he used to care for me but now he sae not that care la... can u believe that...

yup i noe i've been pressurizing him all the time... but dun put fault on me la... he's the wan dragging this matter not me... i want to settle it once n for all but he keep on keeping quiet without saying a word... everything i ask him to speak out, he say he's talking... n yah how am i supposed to believe that he's not enjoying his life... how can i believe that he telling me the truth... he's been doing a lot of things behind my back... he's been having a habit to keep things from me... n surprisingly, i got to noe it from ppls mouth... sort rite...

n yah jus noe he say, "u think la. even now, wen we talk suddenly you becoming like this, whats more if i'm with you seh"... ouch!!!! i simply say to him that i once said if sumhow i get back with him again, i'll change everything... coz the only thing that bother me is that we r not together... n even if i change its jus too hard to do so... coz i need sumone to support me... n you should noe how i depend on him in my life... n yet now look how's supporting who all this while...

frankly, i hate to have a fight with him, i hate to disrespect him, i hate to shout at him... but if he's doing thing the right way, i dun mind... but he's not... lots of things i've been keeping for his seek...

like wat he say jus now, den all this while i've been doing things unwilling la... its not that way.. but come to think abt it... is it fair... all this while i've been doing nthing to satisfide him... helping him his way thru... doing everything even wen i noe he can do it himself.... but does he ever appreciate me... does he even having me as his priority... does he????..... no.. totally no... he might have change but its only for a while... he only satisfide my needs for less than a week...

n now i gues i'll be meeting him this friday... dunno wat i'm going to talk... i jus want him to say things out... i want to listen... by rite i'm giving him till today or this sunday for answer on wanting to be with me or not... but i gues i could stand any longer.. .

n i gues this time round, i'm going to give back all the memories back to him... i dun need to be reminded by anything... he make me hate him, n now he have to face the consequences... like i once say it, once i hate sumone, means i really hate them... never can they be my fren... so i hope he dun make me decide on leaving him like a stupid fucking trash tat was never in my life...